I see the signs. Numbers, lots of numbers. 333. 666. 999. 55. You come into my awareness each time and I wonder what you’re trying to tell me. Everything is going along as expected, stressful and uncertain, at the nearly 3 year mark since you left this earthly plane. I don’t dream often, but lately I’ve been focused on our home and I see my stress playing out in dream scenes. Uncertain why it’s taking so long to sell our family home after 6 months of trying. I’ve done it all, poured money into refreshing it and lowered the price. Why am I hanging on? I have vague dreams about houses, foundation, where I live and belong. Last night, I had a lucid dream about you. Your whole healthy body laid next to me in bed, turned away from me, and it was you, as if you’d never left me and we were still on our timeline from before. Except now, I felt conflicted. Conflicted at honoring our marriage that had no closure upon your death, and the love I feel for my new partner (that you sent me) who I’m getting closer to every day. As I laid there in silence, looking at your skin, I wondered, “Can I have them both?” I feel like you’re sending me number signs, gentle nudges, towards the right path in life. Was this lucid dream a louder communication on your part? You didn’t say anything. You were just there, beside me, comforting, but I didn’t want to hurt you because I want my new partner, too. Maybe I’m still grieving you. Maybe I will always grieve you. I’m ready to close my eyes in meditation, open to any automatic writing you can impart. Taking a breath now…
Take your time, T, take it slow. I am here by your side, guiding you as always, from afar and sometimes near, but I am here. Please don’t worry. Just relax and let things happen. Take your time. Take it slow. The universe isn’t rushing you to anywhere or anything. Keep your beloved pets close they are your earthly protectors. Here to calm you, and help you ease forward. I will continue to help as I can from this place in space, but there’s a limit. I can only nudge. I cannot direct or make anything happen. What are your true desires? What do you want to be? Who do you want to help? I suggest stay on the path, the path of service, and the doors will open to you when the time is right. It may even surprise you how quickly good news and winds of change may flow to you. Stop resisting. Settle into your breath and harmony. Don’t be so afraid. Fear is harming your body, and you need your strength for the new era that is arriving in due time, in short time. Save your strength and shine your light to help others. They will need you more than you know. You will be fine. You are loved from so many angles, by so many souls, stop comparing, pining, questioning. Just go with the flow, my love. Twin flame. I’ll see you on the other side, but please, not too soon. It isn’t your time. Love you. Peace out.